Desperate

When one is desperate for a companion, one looks for a potential relationship in every person who shows any kind of interest.

When a guy looks at her for the first time, she won't notice it. When he looks at her for the second time, she might see it, but not interperate it as something important.

Only when a guy looks at a girl every day, she might notice it and take it into consideration to be anything.

A guy needs to show constant interest in a girl, for her to start wondering whether she might like him or not.

Sometimes when the girl notices the guy, the guy might be moving on to another girl. Then the girl will build another layer around her heart, just to make sure she doesn't make another mistake like that again.

The more times that happens to a girl, the more difficult it becomes to break down the wall she built.

The only thing that is worse than one, is none.

I'm shouting it right in your face: "Please help me!"

I'm screaming the words right at you, why don't you hear me?

I need you too see that I'm alone and afraid. I need you too see that I need help. I need you to see that I need somebody to talk to. I need you to at least see me.

Why can't you see that it is right in front of you? Why can't you see that I'm losing grip, I'm just not strong enough to hold on anymore. Please, I'm begging you! Please, please help me.

Please come to my rescue. Please catch me when I fall.

Open your eyes and see that I need you.

Open your ears and hear my cry for help.

Please just notice me, I won't be here much longer... I don't want to be here much longer...

Rules and regulations

I don't really care about myself or how I end up to go wherever I go to at the end.

I don't like placing myself first and you'll seldom catch me placing me before you.

At some stage I was sure of where I would end up one day, but I'm just human. I have my faults and these days it seems as if I can't keep to every single rule made. If i oblige to one rule I brake another.

Imagine yourself walking down a road. On both sides you have beautiful flowers. Would you stray off the path too smell the different colors?
Or when you walk down the road and there are thorns in your way. Would you walk through it too keep on the path, or would you walk on the grass and go around it?

I like walking on the path and I would like to think that I'm strong enough not to stray off my path... Unfortunately I'm only human and I end up smelling the the colors on the sides of the road.

I smell every color and keep those I like, to have as a memory - a reminder. I stray off the path and walk right next to the flowers where everything seems simple and easy. Sometimes I walk on the grass, to walk around the thorns, because it looks less painful. It looks easier.

I've come to realize that in order for me to be able to help my friends, and for me to be able to rid them of their pain, I have to stay on the path at all times. Even if that means walking right through the thorns barefoot.

I just sometimes wish it was made easier, with hiking boots or somebody to hold my hand and walk with me every step of the way.

I wish!

I keep seeing this image...

A girl, eyes full of tears. Wrapped in the arms of a guy who cares, but never showed it. A guy who just wants to be there, who just wants to hold her.

She's silently wishing for him too feel the same about her. He's wishing to take away her pain.

He slowly leans down, kissing her on both her eyelids. Telling her that everything will be alright...

Truth of life

How unfortunate is it, that one can fake ones own happiness for more than a day...

Surely those who spend every day would notice something the moment you start too fake?

Unfortunately in the world we live in, there are gadgets that take humanity away.. This gadget is called a BlackBerry!

Technology is the best thing that could have happened, but the human race is not nearly mature enough too handle the responsibilities that come with the technology. As technology adapts and changes, the human race should also adapt and change. Unfortunately the human race keep staring at what was and not at what could be.

Slowly but surely, humanity is disappearing.

People don't make time too personally check on friends and family too find out if they are still alive and kicking. Instead a sms, or a whatsapp, or a bbm will be sent out. Sometimes, even when the two persons are in the same room, they would use a communication device too chat with the other person. The worst part, is that more and more brawls and bickering are done via communication devices and not face to face.

When did humanity become such cowards?

When did humanity become scared of facing life and the amazing challenges it hands us?

Stand up for humanity and put down the bbm and the whatsapp for one day and make time too go to the people who mean allot to you!

Make time for humanity.

A hundred percent need

Not being able too tell a special somebody that you love them, can result into your brain believing things that aren't necessarily there.

It can result into your brain believing that your crush is looking into your direction...

It can result into you thinking that the comment on your post means more than it really does...

It can result into you saying yes to a relationship, when you actually only want to say no...

It can result onto saying you love somebody, two days after meeting them...

Having the need to tell somebody you love them won't get satisfied when you tell your parents, your friends, your siblings, your cousins...

Sometimes you really just need somebody special... Somebody who gives you goose bumps... Somebody who takes your breath away... Somebody who makes you smile when you start thinking about them...

It doesn't necessarily have to be the Eros type of love... Sometimes it just needs to be a simple: "I love you"

Just another wide eye fantasy

I'm having just another one of my fantasies...

I'm walking in an almost deserted street, the brilliant moonlight making my hair a shining clean brown, a light drizzle hiding the tears. A drenched dress, my shoes in the one hand, the mask in the other hand.

My first masked ball a total mess!

I'm walking with my head bent down, not nearly ready to face the world again.

Out of the white gleaming moonlight, there you are - a blurring image through the light drizzle of the night.

Standing against the wall and then slowly walking towards me, I glance down again - refusing too see give in too my minds tricks. Refusing too see the created image in front of me. There is no way that anybody else would be walking in these abandoned streets at this time of night.

You walk slowly towards the me, put your hand under my chin so as to stare into my teary eyes. You sculpt your hands around my face and lean in slowly. You close your eyes and our lips meet.

You fold your arms around me, keeping me safe, your lips never leaving mine.

A moment in time, frozen in eternity, waiting for the perfect rain to drizzle onto the fantasy and make it come to life

Young and stupid

Every time I come back, I feel like a total mess-up.

I don't feel good enough and I feel like I'll never be able to be good enough.

I try to be all responsible and grown up, but the truth is that I'm still wild at heart. I'm still an adventure seeking, adrenaline craving young grasshopper. Learning by making mistakes. Having fun and forgetting about the time. Adapting to the situation and not being too worried about what happens next.

I know I should be able to think everything through before jumping at the occasion and just gong with it, but I can't live that way... I have tried it, but it feels empty and controlled.

I need life too take me where it wants me to go. I need life to test me and test what I'm capable of. I still need to make mistakes, so I can learn from them, grow stronger because of them.

That doesn't mean I'm going to go looking for trouble, I'm just going to test life and see what it has too offer.

I need to live irresponsibly from time to time - and get stuck in a place I didn't plan too get stuck at. And just go where the night takes me. That doesn't mean I'll be completely irresponsible and loose my values. I have more dignity than that. YOU thought me better than that!

Just let me be and trust that life will take me exactly where I should go, too grow stronger and be taught the lessons of life... Let me be and trust life too give me back to you.

I have to be able to do this. I have to know my strength. I have to know whether I'm good enough. I have to know whether I listened to what you taught me.

I have to know!

Wish upon a star

If I had one wish - a fantacy, it would be this...

I would wish for a man, to sing for me a song. With a guitar in his hand and a rose in mine.

I would wish for the stars above our heads, with the moonlight in our eyes.

I would wish for it too be me and you, the whole night at our hands.

I would wish for you too sing me a song, about love, about life, about growing old together.

I would wish for a guitar, played by a man, who knows about life and how to treat a girl.