Enough is enough!

I don't want to think any more! My mind is going crazy trying to figure out what to do.

How do I explain what I think I feel? How do I put into words what I am experiencing right now.

I found that person, the one who meets the requirements. I found that person who seems to fit into my puzzle. Who can keep up with me.

I found that person with the same goals as me. The same dreams and future plans. I found that person with the same love for wildlife.

I also found out that the person I found is unavailable.

They say we all want what we can't have!

Does that mean that the feeling I have is only this strong because I can't have the person? Or is this feeling truly this strong?

How can this feeling still be when the distance is so great?

How do I know if everything that happened in 6 days was real and not just some sick joke my mind played on me?

How do I rest if I don't know?

How will I ever know?